Saturday, December 25, 2010

Crappy Christmases

Sorry for those happy Christmas mooders. I know it's the birth of Jesus Christ. And yeah, maybe I am in a seasonal depression stage. WHATEVER!!

This could be my nth crappy Christmas. Christmas is not about gifts and traditions. It should be peace and goodwill to men. If I see someone so happy to receive a gift in Christmas, I am against it. Or I am against HAPPY. Because happiness will just fade away, slow or sudden. I guess I am afraid to be happy. Oh, and btw, I have Christmases receiving no gifts so don't blame me for being crappy about it. And this year, I receive only one gift.

Peace and goodwill. I don't often get that on Christmas. Either bad time with family or (this year) I wronged someone and I'm priced as cheap for video making (that I should give them a cheaper cost). I KNOW I'M NOT ESTABLISHED BUT AT LEAST I'M ABOUT 40% CHEAPER THAN THE PROFESSIONALS. Forty percent cheaper because IT'S STILL VIDEO EDITING AND I AM FINANCIALLY COMPENSATING MY DIGITAL EQUIPMENT COSTS. Yeah, and the program is CHEAP?! Duh! It's expensive. Even though I obtained it illegally, I hope to buy the registered one someday. (If "someday" will ever come, and I mean when I become a filmmaker.)

Welcome to my Christmas!!

I hate 2010. Money is one of the most parts that I'm having some issues on. What more could be the next years after 2010?

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Mother label me as an ADD I took an online quiz.
And here's the result:

Serious ADHD Likely!

You scored a total of 78

It is highly likely that you are presently suffering from adult attention deficit disorder, according to your responses on this self-report questionnaire. You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort, or a recommendation for treatment. However, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek further diagnosis from a trained mental health professional immediately.

If you scored...
You may have...
70 & up
50 - 69
35 - 49
25 - 34
0 - 24
Adult ADHD
Moderate ADHD
Borderline ADHD
No ADHD likely

This is not a diagnosis tool.

But I would still rather go for being an Aspergers than ADD. Because I don't believe being an ADD.

Friday, December 10, 2010

If a job interviewer is to ask: "Why should we accept you, what makes you different from the other applicants?"

My answer:

"Well, first of all, we are all different people, different genes, different DNAs. We all think differently. I may not have what the other applicants have. I don't know what they have. They don't have what I have either. I'm good at what I'm good at in my own ways. I don't know how good the others are, and maybe and honestly, they may be better than I. Now why should you accept me for this job? I want to learn. I want to experience. I want to be exposed. And I want to develop my skills. I want to do better than what I am already good at. And also because you need an extra hand which is why you're looking for applicants."

P.s. I'm an unemployed fresh nursing graduate who still is unable to get a hand of her transcript because of some lack of requirements. That would be the university's fault. They shouldn't have let me walk-the-aisle. And I'm desperate to start earning to be able to live a dream (and live apart from the family): do something that I like to do or am actually doing (computers, photography, videos). I also like to join YWAM's University of Kona in Hawaii. I'm trying to save some money but I have no allowances from my parents, I'm not working, and I'm also using my small savings from making videos for others to buy camera accesories. Too bad for me. I'm not sure what I am doing.